I don't know...

It's been a month and a day since I got back home from California. Being home for a month, it was fast. But I don't remember anything I did here because my Calif memories won't go away like I'm stuck in there. I help myself by not looking at photos and videos. I try skipping music I used to hear everyday there. Still there are moments when it will hit me and then I would tear up. Such a cry baby. I don't know. I really don't know. What I know, there's so much improvement already haha! You will probably scratch your head if you saw me on my first weeks. I cry once a day. But now I smile more often. Hooray! Maybe God is teaching me not to be so attached to the good stuff and learn how to let go. God is preparing me to be strong when things like this happen again. I am very emotional person, that's true! I wish I am not. But it's just the way it is. Ugh, there are so many things running in my head. I'm sad, I'm happy. I'm crazy. I'll be fine. It's 1230 am, I should sleep.